I'm just left.... wanting.
Wanting to wake up to all of this being a nightmare. Wanting to wake up to all of this being.... somehow made up, or just something I hallucinated.
I feel like I'm moments away from snapping and breaking apart. I feel like everything is becoming too much... I don't know what to do. I feel like I should be doing something better... I feel like I should be much more self-sufficient, much more self-reliant, and much more prepared to face to world around me.